ugh! not another one of these posts!

As I settle into my 25th year more of my friends are getting married, owning homes, starting actual careers. I on the other hand have come full circle and am right about where i started when i was 17, some things are different some things are the same. i wouldn't call myself a failure but damned if i know what to do next.

goals, goals are very important in this glorious modern world. I currently do not really have any. Of course i am planning on making more money, moving into my own place, and traveling but when? i don't know. How? i don't know. I used to have goals, very definite goals. For today's blog i will reveal former goals and count what i have achieved and ponder what could still be achievable.

in chronological order of when goal was imagined:

1. drive a race car off of a ramp status: not yet
2. worldwide treasure hunt status: nope
3. master a deadly art status: nope
4. own airship status: not this lifetime
5. stop going to school status: nailed
6. make sandwich from scratch (i.e. grow and harvest grain, milk cow and make cheese from milk, grow tomatoes and lettuce and other vegetables, grow apples juice apples, ferment apples for vinegar, grow mustard seed mix with vinegar to make mustard etc...) status: not yet
7. download gigs and gigs from a t1 status: nailed
8. learn a foreign language status: no comprende

off the top of my head those are the goals i have had from a young age up about until some time around high school. i guess achieving some of my goals have been pretty cool. I don't go to school any more, although i might go back this fall. I used to work at an ISP and having access to a full t1 was just one of the perks, now fast Internet is 20 bucks a month so it isn't even a big deal anymore.

One day i might learn a foreign language or harvest enough grain for one loaf of bread, milk a cow for a few slices of cheese, grow a garden for a half of a tomato, a leaf of lettuce, a few slices of cucumber, grow an apple tree for a teaspoon of vinegar and grind mustard seeds to make a dollop of paste. some fool might let me peel out in a race car and go flying off a ramp. who knows!

who knows what the future holds. the future is a mystery. i don't even know if i want to do those things anymore anyway. i do however know what i don't want; I will save that list for another day. for now i will continue avoiding conflict, risky behavior, and poisonous characters. I might go make some new friends later on, but in the mean time I will continue to read and learn new skills.

so whats the deal, where is every tune in june?

my army of loyal readers might be all like "we, the loyal thousands, expected you to do what you were said you were going to do in this post . Why did you flake out on talking about music this month. Why can't you talk about one song or something every day in june? You haven't even really posted hardly anything this month."

Well, loyal thousands, the problem is that talking out of your ass isn't easy and i can't talk out of my ass about music on any kind of regular schedule. i sat down on june 1 and listened to music for a few hours and said to myself i says, "some of that music was pretty cool" and that was all i could say. then i got an idea...

just go to my pandora profile yeah there is still no cool little comment for my favorite song of the day or real life annecdote about where i first heard that song or what it means to me but oh well maybe i will do that someday~

half way done

1.) I was able to darken the cloud int he right side of the image thus erasing the seam.
2.) adjusting the hue and saturation to match the colors in each sky image left me with a big gray spot right here. i got rid of it with the pen painting with blue, white, pink and gray in various modes such as color dodge then burn, hue, and exclusion.
3.) you would think painting a blurry formless object like a cloud would be easy. it ain't. there must have been a time lapse in these images (time never stands still) because the clouds are not the same color or shape and i just kind of matched things up the best i could (i wasn't planning on combining anything when i took the pictures). Basically i had to redraw this cloud on top of another one. I don't think i am done with it yet.
4.) the waves on the right are bigger than the ones on the left. again probably because of a lapse in time and lack of planning but it might work out because of the perspective, maybe? anyway i matched up a big wave with another kind of big wave so it looks like one wave after some color correction it should be all set.

getting in on this because

and this is where it came from. ah yes, another internet cliche is born. will it be as big as dancing hamster? only you can decide.

new project

I am combining a few pictures of a lake to make one better picture. This is what i have come up with after about 10 steps. I am fixing the clouds and erasing the seams today and later I will have to make up my mind about what to do with the water. I have made tons of mistakes because this watered down photoshop software i am using is so frustrating. The curves tool is a slidebar and not a graph, it doesn't have lab mode, the masking is dumbed down and other things that I keep expecting to have are missing or dumb. After I finish this i might break down and try GIMP but I really don't want to suffer that photoshop 4 interface I remember it having. Photoshop 6 is the pinnacle of photoshop interfaces, at least until they figure out how to integrate illustrator properly.



It looks nice enough so far so I will not start over, that pinkining in the sky was a nice surprise. Even if I did start over I would just make different mistakes so why bother? The water has this cool fake look at this point. I am not sure what to do about it yet.

i have been bummin lately, here look at this

this is my favorite form of that anime dance song video. if you haven't seen this in some form you probably have dial-up internet, and that is ok.